my eyes. ((:

annual awards day is awkward & comforting in some-sort
of weird way. i woke up that morning,quite late but i still
slacked around even though i know i have to get going.
its already 2. and i still havent bathed. and school
starts at 3.35.

asked mum to send me. i wore my stupid pe shirt
with a stupid brown splotchy stain that wouldnt come off.
i dont even know how the stain got there in the first place.
arsehole stain. & its right,SMACK! in the middle of my shirt,
between my 'stuffs'. which-is totally obvious. :(

i arrived just in the nick of time.
saw hols,li & the rest of my choir friends.
joined them. we hung around. i,
as usual made a beeline for the toilet
and started applying my make up
already. i feel complete with them.
then went up to AVA room.
rush. rush. rush. take gown,
went back to toilet and changed.

honestly,i think the gown looks
muuch better without the organza-layer-thingy.
it makes the gown tacky.
but i guess wearing only the inside gown
would look 'indecent' or other lamesyitty.
and the gold colour is really pissing me off.
i prefer cream. or black. but gold?


then i plastered summore makeup
on my face. weee. loovvee.
" jannah happy la,can put so much make up! "
thats what mrs ho remarked. i just
grinned. yes,yes! im happy!

then we went downstairs to get our food and eat.
we have to go the 'dnt room' way coz the
camteen is blocked or something. the worst part is,
we have to pass through the house contigents.

gawd i can feel my face burning up. i could feel their eyes
digging on my back,watching my every move. i feel like dying.
i just tried to walk nonchalantly,like being in choir is the most
coolest shit that ever happened to me. NORT.

we got to the dnt room (without a major nervous breakdown,thank you very much.)
the food looks weird. tastes weird. or i just made my brain think
it tastes weird because it looks weird. so maybe its not weird at all though.
i ate the stone-hard chicken half heartedly and nibbled at the potato.
i like potatoes,only this doesnt taste potato-ey. i ate 1/2 of the rice.
awnd then i threw the thing away. they gave us NEWater. im okay
with it but its like,we know the origins of that thing so its kind of weird to
actually consume it.

we went canteen then for a sound check.
the humidity and hotness practically stung. i could
feel warm heavy air pressing on me. i sweated like there's
rain on my head. when i sweat,i really
sweat i betcha. & the MF-ing organza didnt help either.
it prickled underneath my armpits. itches uncomfortably.
i kept pulling the sleeves down so they wouldnt touch my skin.
but its like asking mr loke to shut up when
he's in his full speech mood. USELSS.
miraculously,the whole ordeal came to an end
we went back up to the AVA room. (aaaahhh. aircon.)
the performance. is humiliating. but forgettable.

pixie.